Story # 2 – “Emotions”

It’s the forever back and forth, the yes or the no, the stay or the go. It’s a battle that has been raging for the ever present, but will I land on the side of good? On the side of justice, on the side of what is correct. Is there even a correct way? Maybe both ways can be good, but good for who, good for what? I have something they all want, and there are two ways to deliver what they desire. Do I favor me, or do I favor them, is there a win win, or will it always be an either/or? If I hold the secret, could it help them more if I retain it? Or maybe I could help all, as well as the future, by releasing the secret. Isn’t my secret the result of a long history of secret revealers? Or did I take their secrets and mold a new and totally unique secret? Again though, I had all the information when creating my new wonder. Could I have only created that new wonder because someone at some point chose to not share their wonder? Is my discovery only unique because someone discovered it already, but did not share it? Do I open or close? Do I help or hinder? If I help, if I share, what will become of me? What if I wither away, what if I give and have nothing left for me? Will I be a teacher, will I be helpful, am I capable? It’s now not even what I should do, the question has become what can I do? I have a lot left to give, but nothing I’m willing to give up. I must harness my anxiety, I must manage, and everyday I will try to answer every question inside my head. For no one can answer them for me.