Story #20 “Emotions”

I am a liar. There, I said it. I’ll tell you something that maybe you haven’t thought of yet though, you’re a liar too! We all do this, and have accepted it, AND most of us get offended if you don’t lie to us! Even though it’s the social norm, the accepted matter of communicating, and all anyone wants, I still am overwhelmed with guilt. Guilt of the lie, guilt of not showing you my true self, my true thoughts and reactions. In honesty, you do not know when I am lying and when not, I have gotten so good at this that the transition from lie to truth and back again is flawless. I am convincing. It’s a power. Where else could I take this? Will I forget where the transition is? Will it remain a power I control, that I conquer? Or will I lose control of the power, and as such lose track of where the lie starts and stops? We have all agreed this is okay, that this is best, this is what we WANT! But I don’t want the lies to escape. Tell me your truth, show me your whole being, but only up to the point that I am comfortable with, only to the point that still makes me feel good. Tell me your truth! But don’t make me feel bad or icky! Show me all of you, but don’t ask me for much. I don’t want to be inconvenienced. There is guilt on both sides and we all have blame for both ways of thinking. I am a liar, but so are you!