Story #21 “Emotions”

There have been many songs sung, poems written, stories told, but still my excitement for this experience reigns over all other excitement to date. I still cannot believe it always; I pinch myself often. How did I receive this? How am I worthy of this gift? Was it my patience? I was so patient, possibly too much so… I wanted this for so long, and denied the pursuit out of fear. Oh!!! But fear of what?! This day, this moment, this was the possibility of my pursuit, and the feeling of this excitement is the possibility I was restricting myself from. I have it now, I hold it in a powerful grip and am proud of who I am and who I’ve become in order to have this moment, this experience here and now. For all others to see, to witness. For me to proclaim this very thing that I fought off and ultimately succumbed to. I am powerless. I am all ending and all beginning at this very moment. I see all possibilities, life goes in all directions, sometimes all at once. I am all seeing in this minute moment. Look to me, for I am the fortune teller, I am wise…when you give up all, you gain everything. Also, I am limited to only seeing here and now, and this is where my power lies. For this moment, I wait. I wait for what I have waited for all these years before. I am excited by the firm grip I have on it, excited by the waiting still for it, excited by what endless possibilities are laid out before me now. I no longer have to wonder, and yet I wander through ever more wonders. This day has given me the ability to grow and expand and become greater than all dreams I’ve ever dreamt.