Story #22 “Emotions”

I look at you, you look at me, we both want what the other has. I desire the freedom from responsibility that you hold. You desire my freedom to adventure. You want what I do with my day; I want what you do with yours. Schedules, travel, time frames, due dates, and yet my day still looks like freedom to you. You see: Adventure, socializing, problem solving. For you are energized by all that exhausts me. Boredom, loneliness, under satisfaction, and yet your day looks like freedom to me. I see relaxation, peacefulness, tranquility. I am excited by everything that under stimulates you. Jealousy in all its glory. I love my life! I have built it as such because I knew what every step taken could and possibly would lead to. I have laid out the world I see. I have built the world I wanted. Still I wonder and dream of moments of simplicity. You love your life! You enjoy the adventures you go on, but wonder why there are not more. They are not everlasting. If we all always want what we can’t have, do we really appreciate all that we do have? My life should actually be more like what you currently experience. I should be more focused on spending the most time with all the people I enjoy. I should be extremely exuberant about seeing anyone that I love. I should play as hard as I sleep. Your life should actually be like mine. I leave home everyday, go to new places, see new things, smell new things, taste new things. I get to make new memories with new friends everyday, but that was what you were made for. You are best for me, and I strive to be the best for you, for you show me how to come into every moment with energy, and I show you how to have adventure with poise. Our jealousy for each other’s lives can be met with teaching each other how to live better.