Story #3 “ThankYous”

Thankfulness doesn’t quite cut it, although the word spoiled comes to mind much more  frequently. Am I deserving of this? Possibly, but the most deserving? …not even close. Have I ever even given of myself to the amount I am now receiving? I would answer that question with a no. These people thoughtlessly provide for me over the course of months…if I was able to look into the future, judging by what they have done over the course of days and weeks, I can imagine this care and thoughtfulness is to come for years. People are giving so much of themselves by a task I chose, I decided on for years, and I wanted above anything else. Yet they all step in to help in a challenging time I created all for myself. This is not something I have been burdened with or an ailment I had no control over becoming sieged with. Rather I took every possible step to produce this into being, literally to produce a being, yet they do not mind. Still they come and shower me. Help me at the first sign of me asking for it. Do I do as much as I am receiving though? Have I done enough for those who are caring for me right now? Or will I have enough chances to care for them in the future? I take and receive all the love and kindness they have to give, and again, thankfulness comes to mind, but what overpowers it is much more the feeling of being spoiled. Do I need help? Admittedly yes, and so many will say it takes a village, but so many others could use the help over me. I will do my best to receive all gifts with grace and thankfulness, but do note, above all else I feel spoiled!