Author Archives: ExploreFTTS

I look at you, you look at me, we both want what the other has. I desire the freedom from responsibility that you hold. You desire my freedom to adventure. You want what I do with my day; I want what you do with yours. Schedules, travel, time frames, due dates, and yet my dayContinue reading “Story #22 “Emotions””

There have been many songs sung, poems written, stories told, but still my excitement for this experience reigns over all other excitement to date. I still cannot believe it always; I pinch myself often. How did I receive this? How am I worthy of this gift? Was it my patience? I was so patient, possiblyContinue reading “Story #21 “Emotions””

I am a liar. There, I said it. I’ll tell you something that maybe you haven’t thought of yet though, you’re a liar too! We all do this, and have accepted it, AND most of us get offended if you don’t lie to us! Even though it’s the social norm, the accepted matter of communicating,Continue reading “Story #20 “Emotions””

When I grow up, I want to be like you. So resilient, capable, fearless, powerful, you are a giver of life. What have I done to match your greatness…I have done everything to damage you. You require so little and yet can give so much. You require such little space, not me, I need thisContinue reading “Story #19 “Emotions””

It almost always starts with love, with warmth, a touch, maybe a snuggle, and moves into a full cuddle. Both are happy, both are calm, both are enjoying the presence of the other. Where does it all go wrong? What changed between the cuddle and the anger? Surely I misread the situation. Have I createdContinue reading “Story #18 “Emotions””

What is love? If you love something, you care for it, you honor it, you do what’s best for it…right? I have been hearing this word love, but have not seen love in the way I define it. Do I not understand love? Perhaps love is not actually something that benefits the receiver, but isContinue reading “Story #17 “Emotions””

Define me, but don’t blind me. Go ahead, you can define me. Believe me, I’ve tried doing it for thirty years now. Define me, but don’t blind me. You may define me how you see fit, but don’t take away from me the work I’ve done. You may not strip me of my journey, theContinue reading “Story #16 “Emotions””

I’m smart, yeah! I’m capable, yeah! I know how to work through this and master my tasks today! Not anymore… I feel I have received a concussion, but have been so safe. I feel as if I haven’t slept in weeks, but have slept nine hours a night and have had naps almost every day.Continue reading “Story #15 “Emotions””

You tiptoe quietly, oh…but not too quietly. That’s the key, you don’t want to have to see, but you don’t want to startle. It is ours as much as it is theirs, but when it comes to power it is all theirs. They rule it. We think we do, and in some regards that isContinue reading “Story #14 “Emotions””

It doesn’t happen all year, or even at the same time every year. It’s based on the conditions. It’s not quite the stars that have to align, but aligning must take place. The days long, the temperature hot, the water available, the nutrients around, the wind shall be plenty, but not too plentiful. The starsContinue reading “Story #13 “Emotions””